and not in the fun Beastie Boys way.
Nope. In the much less fun, don’t want to leave the house, feeling like I have bugs crawling on me (which is called formication), avoiding your phone calls, can’t sleep at night, always half asleep, obsessively anxious over everything way.
Depression is very common with prolonged physical health matters, Nikol. I know better than to presume to tell you how to manage your emotions, and I’m sure you know enough about yourself to know what measures of help you ought to seek. I’ll only humbly suggest that you do try to be patient with yourself.
I’ve got an entire sub-series about my experiences with depression on my blog; you may glean something from one of those posts that could be helpful in some way. I don’t wish to sound self-promoting or arrogant. It’s just that I’ve actually been told by some readers that they found something I wrote helpful, and I’d like to help you somehow and referring to those posts is the best I know to offer.